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- Rihanna Details Chris Brown Assault In '20/20' Interview
- Chris Brown Opens Up About Rihanna Assault In MTV News Special
- Domestic Violence Victims Don't Have To Cope Alone
- Jay-Z Performs 'Empire State Of Mind' At Yankees Parade
- Dr. Michelle Callahan Speaks About Domestic Abuse In 'Chris Brown: The Interview'
- Kris Allen's 'Live Like We're Dying' Video: His Time, His Show
- Rihanna Describes The Night Chris Brown Assaulted Her
- Mariah Carey To Headline Madison Square Garden On New Year's Eve
- Rihanna Describes 'Dangerous' Relationship With Chris Brown
- Lady Gaga Says Her Fans Inspire Her To Make Music
| Rihanna Details Chris Brown Assault In '20/20' Interview Posted: 06 Nov 2009 10:13 PM PST 'I said to myself, 'I'm never gonna date someone like my dad,' ' she says on '20/20.'
Rihanna was reflective and revealing throughout her "20/20" interview with Diane Sawyer on Friday night (November 6) as she spoke about her relationship with Chris Brown and explained that abuse was also a part of her upbringing, much like her former boyfriend's. "I said to myself, 'I'm never gonna date someone like my dad,' " Rihanna told Sawyer. "Never." The singer said her father was severely abusive to her mother in the past and hit her "numerous" times. She said she would unsuccessfully try to break up their fights, attempting to distract the pair by breaking glasses and dishes in the kitchen. The singer said her father even broke her mother's nose.
Rihanna painted the picture of her and Brown's early days together as filled with happiness. She said the "Forever" singer was her best friend but cautioned that falling in love with your best friend can be "scary." "The more in love we became, the more dangerous we became for each other, equally as dangerous," she said, describing their relationship as an obsession. She said on the night Brown assaulted her, she was happy and alcohol did not play a part in influencing his or her behavior. Rihanna confirmed that a text message from a girl Brown had a previous relationship with was at the root of their argument that night. She said Brown lied about the message and that she would not let him off the hook. "He had his back against the wall," she said. The pair left a pre-Grammy party and soon found themselves arguing in a residential district in Brown's rented Lamborghini. "It escalated into him being violent toward me, and it was ugly," she said, clearing her throat. Rihanna confirmed to Sawyer information previously detailed in the police report. She said Brown punched her and bit her repeatedly. She said she was also choked, but not to the point of near unconsciousness, although she said she did have trouble breathing. "All I kept thinking was, 'When is it going to stop?' " she told Sawyer of the escalating violence. She admitted Brown threatened to kill her, as well, but she told Sawyer he "was saying it to scare me." "At that point, I just didn't know what could happen," she continued. "He was clearly blacked out. There was no person when I looked at him. It was almost as if he had nothing to lose. He had so much to lose. But it was almost as if he had nothing to lose. It wasn't the same person that says I loved you. It definitely wasn't those eyes." "It was ugly," she said. "I fended him off with my feet...but it was not like, it was not like a fight with each other. I just...I really just wanted it to stop," she said. Finally, Rihanna said, her screams prompted a to call the police. "I was bleeding, I was swollen in the face," she said. "So there was no way of me getting home, except for, my next option was to get out of the car and walk. Start walking in a gown, in a bloody face. So I really don't know what my plan was." Rihanna briefly reunited with Brown in Miami approximately a month following the assault. She said she wanted to protect Brown, as fans were turning against him. But Rihanna was conflicted even as she attempted to reassure Brown. "Everything about him annoyed me," she said. He asked her if Rihanna hated him, she recalled. She said she didn't, but she actually resented him. According to her, this was the point where she realized she had to end their relationship. Developmental psychologist Dr. Michelle Callahan told MTV News it's important for victims to get to the point where they must recognize it's time to leave. "It's important for young women to know this is not a sign of love," she urged. "Violence, controlling behavior and abusive behavior is not love." Rihanna's decision to return to Brown confused many once evidence of the assault became public. "Even if Chris never hit me again, who is to say that their boyfriend won't?" Rihanna said during the interview, calling her decision to reconcile with Brown "selfish." "Who's to say that they won't kill these girls? These are young girls, and I just didn't realize how much of an impact I had on these girls' lives until that happened. It was a wake-up call."
Sawyer asked Rihanna about the leaked image of her, battered and bruised, that appeared online after her assault. The singer said she doesn't like seeing the image because of the bad memories it conjures. "I get angry all over again every time I see it," she said. "The whole thing plays out in my head, so I don't like to see it." Brown has repeatedly emphasized that he still loves Rihanna and released a song after the incident called "Changed Man," in which he apologized to his ex. Rihanna, however, claims to have never heard the record. She said she still has feelings for Brown and wants him to be successful, but she seems to be struggling to comprehend her emotions, calling it an annoyance to still feel connected to him. She told Sawyer she was unsure if she could ever reunite with him. "I can't answer that question right now, 'cause you never know what the future holds," she explained. "He was my best friend, the person I loved. We spent two years of our lives together. "I don't have a desire at all to be with him," she added. "I don't see how we could get back together. But I'm not God, so I can't predict the future." She went on to add that there's nothing she wants to hear from Brown at the moment. Brown issued a statement to MTV News prior to Rihanna's interview wishing her the best. "I do appreciate her support and wish her the best," he said. "I am extremely sorry for what I did, and I accept accountability for my actions." Rihanna, likewise, wished Brown the best and hoped he could work through his personal issues. "I want him to accept this as a man would," she said. "Accept the responsibility and find a way to not feel sorry for himself." Both artists seem poised to move past the dark moment in their lives. "I'm glad it happed to me," Rihanna said. " 'Cause now I can help young girls. [I would tell them] 'Don't react off of love.' F love. Come out of the situation and look at it third-person and for what it really is. And then make your decision. 'Cause love is so blind. It's so blind." Go here for domestic-violence resources, or check out Think MTV for a video handbook on spotting the warning signs of abuse. Related Photos Related Artists |
| Chris Brown Opens Up About Rihanna Assault In MTV News Special Posted: 06 Nov 2009 03:36 AM PST 'I don't want to be that person,' he tells Sway during 'Chris Brown: The Interview.'
Chris Brown opened up about his assault on former girlfriend Rihanna during the MTV News special "Chris Brown: The Interview" on Friday (November 6), elaborating on his destructive behavior, explaining his previous apologies and describing his ongoing therapy sessions. Brown told MTV News correspondent Sway that he has finally come to terms with the fact that he was capable of such violence.
"I think you'd be in denial and be totally naive not to," he said. "And not being able to realize and own up to the fact of your own wrongs. I mean, me, I've come to terms with it and I'm working on it. ... For that moment or whatever had me at that place, I want to erase that from what my character is. I want to be totally different from now on. I don't want to be that person." Brown admitted that he's still unsure about how the public views him in the aftermath of the incident. His die-hard fans have continued to support him, but others have openly criticized the 20-year-old star. The mixed reaction has confused Brown, he said. "I'm confused right now as far as the public perception [of me]," he said. "Like, I think with my fans, they still love me, they support me, definitely. You have those people who will support you. So it's kinda like 50/50 for me. I got the people that will come out and support and then the people that don't wanna see me do anything. They basically want me in jail." Brown said he hasn't been able to brush off negative comments he gets in public. During a trip to an amusement park, Brown described hearing cries of "woman beater." "I'm human, so when I hear certain things that they say or if I go somewhere and I hear somebody be rude about it, it's just like, 'Man, it's a mistake,' " Brown said. "I made a big mistake. I'm learning from it. Like, I'm not saying, 'Who are they to judge?' because, I mean, everybody's entitled to their own opinion on how they feel, but it hurts." The singer opened up about his Twitter activity as well. He has twice tweeted fan videos that feature images of him with Rihanna. Brown said he wanted to show that their union wasn't "chaotic." "We actually were very close friends," he said of their relationship. Brown is currently in the midst of his court-mandated therapy sessions. The singer said he enjoys the counseling and has been responding to the support. "When I apologize, I really apologize, definitely, about the situation, like me and her personally, obviously," Brown explained. "We've exchanged, I've exchanged my apologies for her, but when I do it publicly, it's for who I've let down. It's for the fans, it's for all the people, even the sponsors. Even the people that have invested in me and thought that I was a good enough role model to be branded or to be like, 'OK, this is Chris Brown.' I really wanted to apologize for the people that I let down and show people that I am wrong for what I've done, but I want people to learn from it and see that I'm really apologetic." Dr. Michelle Callahan, a developmental psychiatrist, said understanding the consequences of an action like Brown's is at the core of rehabilitating violent behavior. "It's very important that they realize this," she told MTV News. "You can get into a lot of trouble. Not only can you seriously get hurt or hurt someone you love, you can get into a lot of trouble. You get involved in the legal system. You can go to jail. There's a lot at stake." Brown echoed Callahan's comment in a statement he released to MTV News on Friday responding to Rihanna's interview with Diane Sawyer. "I only hope that others in similar situations can learn from our experience as well," Brown said. "Abuse of any kind is always wrong." Go here for domestic-violence resources, or check out Think MTV for a video handbook on spotting the warning signs of abuse. Related Videos Related Photos Related Artists |
| Domestic Violence Victims Don't Have To Cope Alone Posted: 06 Nov 2009 03:00 AM PST Rihanna and Chris Brown shed light on the issue of dating abuse.
Victims of domestic violence often feel ashamed, confused, embarrassed and humiliated after being assaulted by their partners. Though in many instances the victims keep those feelings to themselves, they're better off if they share them with a specialist who can help them work through the trauma. But what if the victim is one of the world's biggest pop stars? And what if there's a part of her that feels like she wants to protect her batterer? That's the dilemma Rihanna shared with ABC's Diane Sawyer in her first televised interview since an assault at the hands of former boyfriend Chris Brown in February, airing Friday night (November 6) on "20/20."
Nathaniel Fields, senior vice president of New York-based Safe Horizon, the nation's largest victim-assistance agency, said that Rihanna's comments about feeling embarrassed and humiliated by the assault are typical of domestic violence victims. "We hear a lot of that in our work, but what's so difficult about this is that it's playing out in a public arena and she's not afforded the right to privacy that the victims we tend to work with do," he said. But judging from the way the 21-year-old singer is talking about her emotions since the incident, Fields said it sounds like she is getting proper support. "She seems to be getting help and is realizing that despite being famous, she's a human being and still subject to the same responses to domestic violence, which is women who go back, who were in love and who find it difficult to leave. One of the most remarkable aspects of what Rihanna has said so far in the excerpts of her interview with ABC News is how she is coping with her public persona and the responsibility she feels to be a proper role model, said Terry O'Neill, president of the National Organization for Women. "I think it's really neat that she is understanding the impact of her public persona, especially on younger girls," said O'Neill. "It's remarkable and wonderful that she gets that piece of it." For his part, Chris Brown has also recognized that he needs to set an example for others. "I really wanted to apologize [to] the people that I let down and show people that I am wrong for what I've done, but I want people to learn from it and see that I'm really apologetic," he told MTV News' Sway Calloway in an interview that airs Friday at 6 p.m. ET/PT on MTV. The February incident came just two days after the end of National Teen Dating Violence Awareness and Prevention Week, a three-year-old effort to get out the warning signs about violence among young people (16-24) in relationships. Among those signs, according to experts, are intense jealousy, excessive text messaging or calling, monitoring calls or e-mails, frequently showing up unannounced, telling the other person what to do or wear, publicly embarrassing your partner, frequent accusations of "cheating" or flirting, keeping your partner from doing things they enjoy, and threats of suicide or self-injury in the event of a breakup. If you think you're a victim of domestic violence, it's important to know how to spot it, what to do when it happens and whom to reach out to in such an event. Fortunately, there are number of non-profit outlets offering help to young people dealing with abuse. In addition to long-running organizations, some college kids have created their own networks to help their peers deal with the pain of relationship abuse. It's Abuse, for example, is a campaign that was created in Columbus, Ohio, to bring awareness to and help break the silence about relationship abuse. The site features a number of quizzes designed to educate readers on what is and isn't healthy in a relationship. It also has videos to help young people identify different types of abuse. The number of teenagers who endure abuse throughout the country is shocking, to say the least. A study commissioned by Liz Claiborne Inc. and conducted by Teenage Research Unlimited in February 2005 showed that one in three teenagers reportedly knows a friend or peer who has been hit, punched, kicked, slapped, choked or physically hurt by their partner. In addition, 13 percent of teenage girls who said they have been in a relationship report being physically hurt or hit. The figure that's most alarming, however, is that 73 percent of teens surveyed in the study said they would turn to a friend for help, but only 33 percent of those who have been in or known about an abusive relationship said they have told anyone. "Often women who are battered will take some responsibility for the violence and wonder, 'Is it something I did that made this happen?' " explained Sheryl Cates, CEO of the National Domestic Violence Hotline. "But there's no reason for violence, and I see an undertone of [Rihanna] struggling with how this has affected her life. She still seems traumatized by what happened, but I think she's being very brave and courageous by coming out in such a public way in such a short period of time." In situations of abuse, it's best to talk to family or local community leaders. If you're afraid, confused or embarrassed to speak to them, here are alternative places to turn for help: National Domestic Violence Hotline: NDVH.org, or 800-799-SAFE National Teen Dating Violence Helpline: LoveIsRespect.org, or 866-331-9474 Safe Horizon: SafeHorizon.org, or 800-621-HOPE It's Abuse: ItsAbuse.com Related Videos Related Photos Related Artists |
| Jay-Z Performs 'Empire State Of Mind' At Yankees Parade Posted: 06 Nov 2009 12:12 AM PST MC rode on a float with Alex Rodriguez earlier in parade.
"Let's hear it for New York, New York, New York!" Jay-Z took hip-hop to the World Series earlier this month, and on Friday (November 6) he took it to the teams' World Series victory parade. Not only did Hov ride one of the floats with Yankee star Alex Rodriguez during the parade down the Canyon of Heroes, he closed out the ceremony at City Hall for the Bronx Bombers.
After giving out keys to the city to the entire Yankee organization — including team captain Derek Jeter — New York Mayor Michael Bloomberg announced a "special treat." "His song has become one of the newest anthems of the Yankees," Bloomberg told the audience. "Please welcome a great Yankee fan and a great New Yorker: Jay-Z." Of course, the anthem Bloomberg was referring to was "Empire State of Mind," which Jay and Alicia Keys performed at Yankee Stadium just before game 2 of the Series. (A new version of the song will appear on Keys' forthcoming LP, Element of Freedom. The crowd stood on its feet as Jay — who performed the song at the MTV Europe Music Awards in Berlin the night before — came out. Keys was not in attendance, so singer Bridget Kelly joined him, as she did in Berlin. "I'm the new Sinatra, and since I made it here, I can make it anywhere/ Yeah, they love me everywhere," Jay, wearing a navy-blue Yankees jacket, rapped. Superstar third baseman Alex Rodriguez danced hard to the song, throwing his hand up in the air. Meanwhile, Yankee outfielder Johnny Damon captured the moment with his flipcam while pitcher Andy Pettitte clapped. "Came here for school, graduated to the high life/ Ball players, rap stars, addicted to the limelight," Jay continued. "MDMA got you feelin' like a champion/ The city never sleeps, better slip you an Ambien." As Kelly sang the last notes of the record — "Big lights will inspire you/ Let's hear it for New York, New York, New York" — Yankees C.C. Sabathia, Jorge Posada, Joba Chamberlain and Nick Swisher came from the their seats to shower Jay with handshakes and hugs. Related Artists |
| Dr. Michelle Callahan Speaks About Domestic Abuse In 'Chris Brown: The Interview' Posted: 06 Nov 2009 04:09 AM PST 'If this can happen to Chris Brown and Rihanna, then it can happen to anyone,' Callahan says.
One result of Chris Brown and Rihanna's experience this year, from the assault to the aftermath, is that it has helped to open up a dialogue among young people to discuss domestic abuse in teen relationships. "It's important for anyone to know that if this can happen to Chris Brown and Rihanna, then it can happen to anyone," Dr. Michelle Callahan, a developmental psychologist, told MTV News in a discussion for "Chris Brown: The Interview." "Domestic violence happens in all neighborhoods, regardless of income, city or rural — it doesn't matter, this can happen to anyone at any time. So it's important for kids to also know: Don't be ashamed. Don't be embarrassed. If you're going through something like this or if you're doing it, if you're the victim or the abuser, feel free to confide in someone and let them know what you're going through. And lastly, never, ever, should there be violence in a dating relationship. It's always wrong."
In either case, Dr. Michelle advised that the most important thing for a young man or woman in an abusive situation is to get out immediately. She cautioned that many avoid ending relationships for fear of losing someone they care about, but she said leaving a violent loved one will be better in the end before things escalate. "It's important for young women to know this is not a sign of love," she urged. "Violence, controlling behavior and abusive behavior is not love." Callahan suggested that young men or women, abusers or the one being abused, should seek out a responsible, trustworthy adult should they find themselves in a threatening situation. She said a mature individual can better help lead young people to counseling. And more than anything, Dr. Michelle said teens should realize the consequences of abuse. "It's very important that they realize this: You can get into a lot of trouble," Callahan explained. "Not only can you seriously get hurt or hurt someone you love, you can get into a lot of trouble. You get involved in the legal system. You can go to jail. There's a lot at stake. "Violence is never an acceptable way to respond to things in a relationship," she added. Go here for domestic-violence resources, or check out Think MTV for a video handbook on spotting the warning signs of abuse. Related Videos Related Artists |
| Kris Allen's 'Live Like We're Dying' Video: His Time, His Show Posted: 06 Nov 2009 01:22 AM PST Stylish new clip showcases the 'American Idol' winner's likability.
Time is running out for Kris Allen. Not, you know, metaphorically or anything like that. It's basically the plot of his brand-new video for "Live Like We're Dying," the first single from his self-titled debut disc (due November 17). Time — here represented by a constantly diminishing digital clock located somewhere near an abandoned housing complex in the middle of the desert (no word if the Bluth Company put it there) — is eternally fleeting, and as such, we should live without fear or regret. Or, if you will, like we're dying.
And that just so happens to also be the plot of the song, a fantastic rock/pop hybrid originally written by Irish act the Script, then co-opted by Allen for his debut, somewhat understandably, since the song seems tailor-made for him. It plays to the strengths that carried him to the "American Idol" crown — his husky, broad voice, shuffly guitar playing and genuinely sweet disposition — and wraps them in a well-worn, subtly sexy tune, full of wide-eyed, dare we say inspirational sentiments. Yet, at the same time, it's also incredibly earnest in tone. Allen wants you to seize the bull by the horns, but he's not going to be pushy about it. He's a nice guy, after all. But back to the video for a second here: It looks great (or certainly costly), full of artfully color-saturated frames and great expanses, recalling Snow Patrol's stylish "Run" clip and the Madonna/ Justin Timberlake vehicle "4 Minutes" (mostly in the clockological department). And, in a move that's commendable, it does away with the narrative crutch most "Idol" champs' debuts lean on (see, for example, David Cook's "Light On"), putting the focus squarely on Allen himself. This is his time. This is his show. And while Allen's debut video isn't as flashy-dashy as "Idol" compatriot Adam Lambert's "Time for Miracles," it's just as good — mostly because, rather than rely on fiery explosions, "Dying" plays it straight, showcasing Allen and his talents. It's a bold move, indeed — Allen has never been known as "the flashy one" — but the folks at Jive Records are betting that his personality is all folks need to see. Of course, it doesn't hurt that the song is Ebola catchy, either. Or that Allen is so incredibly likable that he seems to transcend fame, or at least seem unaffected by it. He's a good-looking, really nice kid. He can sing a bit. His video has a clock in it. It's not rocket science, after all — it's pop music. Get your "Idol" fix on MTV News' "American Idol" page, where you'll find all the latest news, interviews and opinions. Related Videos Related Photos Related Artists |
| Rihanna Describes The Night Chris Brown Assaulted Her Posted: 06 Nov 2009 07:56 AM PST 'He had no soul in his eyes, just blank,' Rihanna tells Diane Sawyer.
In Rihanna's first sit-down since Chris Brown assaulted her in February, the pop star explained to Diane Sawyer what happened the night that the attack took place, confirming the rumor that it all began over an argument about a text message Brown had received.
"We had a blast that night," she said in the part of the interview that aired on "Good Morning America" Friday (November 6). She went on to describe how the fun night spent at a pre-Grammy party soon escalated into violence after she confronted him about a text message she found from an unknown woman on his phone. "I caught him in a lie, and he wouldn't tell the truth," she said. "I couldn't take that he kept lying to me. And he couldn't take that I wouldn't drop it. "He wouldn't tell the truth and I wouldn't drop it," she went on. "The truth is right here in text messages, so it escalated into him being violent towards me and ... it was ugly." In the interview, which will air in full on "20/20" Friday night, Rihanna confirmed the account in the police report that Brown was driving as he shoved Rihanna into the car window, punched her several times in the face, bit her and threatened to beat her up when they got home. When she tried to call his assistant for help, he told her she had made a huge mistake, threatened to kill her and threw her phone out of the window. She tried to fend him off with her feet, but "it was not like a fight with each other. I just really wanted it to stop," she said. "All I kept thinking the whole time: When is it going to stop? "He had no soul in his eyes, just blank," she added. "He was clearly blacked out. There was no person when I looked at him." Someone who heard her screaming called 911, but initially she had no idea how she was going to get help. "I was battered. I was bleeding. I was swollen in my face," she said. "There was no way of me getting home. My next option was to get out of the car and start walking in a gown and a bloody face, so I really don't know what was my plan. I didn't have a plan; that whole night was not part of my plan." Soon after, the police photo showing Rihanna's injuries leaked to the Web. "Who likes seeing their face like that? I feel humiliated. I get angry, all over again, every time I see it," she said. "The whole thing plays back in my head, so I don't like to see it." When she looks back on that night, Rihanna said she isn't sure what made Brown's anger escalate to that point. "There's nothing you can do or say to make somebody do that to you," she said. "That's on them. I just knew he had a problem. He had a temper. He needed to get some help. And he did. "The thing men don't realize when they hit a woman, it's the face, the broken arm, the black eye, it's going to heal. That's not the problem. It's the scar inside," she continued. "You flashback. You remember it all the time. It comes back to you, whether you like it or not. And it's painful, so I don't think he understood that. They never do." Go here for domestic-violence resources, or check out Think MTV for a video handbook on spotting the warning signs of abuse. Related Videos Related Photos Related Artists |
| Mariah Carey To Headline Madison Square Garden On New Year's Eve Posted: 06 Nov 2009 09:42 AM PST Tickets for concert go on sale for fan-club members on Monday.
There are always plenty of parties in New York on New Year's Eve, but despite the chaos in Times Square, the best shindig is usually at Madison Square Garden. In the past few years, the venue has hosted a high-profile music act to ring in the new year. The spot is typically reserved for jam bands (Phish have hosted legendary marathon shows in the building, while last year's headliner was My Morning Jacket, who jammed their way into 2009), but this year's show will focus on a true superstar: Mariah Carey. Carey announced that she would be headlining MSG on New Year's Eve via her Twitter and on her Web site on Thursday night. "Mariah Carey, the #1 most successful female recording artist of all time will be live at New York's famous Madison Square Garden for a special New Year's Eve performance!" the announcement on her site reads. "Join Mariah as she bids farewell to 2009 in superstar style and gets ready to ring in 2010!" The announcement doesn't include any information about opening acts or special guests, though it promises that Mariah will perform hits, including her latest singles, "Obsessed" and "H.A.T.E.U.," and other songs from Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel. This Monday tickets will go on sale for members of her Honey B. Fly fan club, who also have the opportunity to enter to win a pair of front-row tickets. For the rest of the public, tickets will be available next Saturday, November 14. Related Artists |
| Rihanna Describes 'Dangerous' Relationship With Chris Brown Posted: 06 Nov 2009 08:32 AM PST 'It was a bit of an obsession almost,' singer tells Diane Sawyer.
Rihanna spoke candidly to Diane Sawyer about falling in love with Chris Brown and the fallout of the February assault in her first sit-down interview since the incident. In the portions of the interview that aired Friday (November 6) on "Good Morning America," the singer blamed the intensity of their relationship on the fact that they were best friends first.
"He was definitely my first big love," Rihanna said. "We were best friends, so we fell in love with each other. To fall in love with your best friend it can be scary because the emotions get... the best of you," she explained. "We just fell really fast, [and] the more in love we became the more dangerous we became for each other, equally dangerous, 'cause it was a bit of an obsession almost. "We were just friends; we always played," she continued, explaining why, even after the assault, they briefly reconciled. "The love doesn't go away right away. He didn't accept that very well. He obviously ... didn't want us to be apart, but I know how to make a decision for me." But Rihanna soon ended their relationship for real. "I just said to him, 'I can't do this,' " she recalled during the interview that airs in full on Friday night's "20/20." "I resented him. I resented him so much. And I always put the tough face on and ... try to play it off. But he knew. He knew it. He kept asking me, 'You hate me, don't you? You hate me.' And I would lie, and I would say, 'No, no.' ... I did hate him. ... Everything about him annoyed me. So finally ... I just said, 'We can't ... we can't do this. I cannot continue to do this.' " That's not to say that Rihanna, who said she regretted reconciling briefly with Brown because of the message it sent to other victims, wasn't conflicted about her decision. "I went through ... a host of emotions," she told Sawyer. "It was confusing for me. I was still attached by love. But I wasn't thinking about ... the reality of the situation. You start lying to yourself. ... This is a memory you don't want to have ever again. ... The physical wounds go away, you put it in the back of your head and you start lying to yourself subconsciously. "I felt very lonely," she continued. "I couldn't even go back to my own house because there were 200 people outside with cameras, paparazzi, journalists, fans, neighbors." At the same time, Rihanna felt a need to shield Brown from the media blitz. "If I feel this depressed, then what is he going through?" she recalled asking herself. "I had to protect him. I thought that I had to let him know, 'Don't do anything crazy. Like, just hang in there.' ...The whole world hates him now. His fans, his career. ... I'm not saying that's an excuse for me to go back, but this is what I was thinking about." All these months later, Rihanna's hatred seems to have faded. "I don't have a desire at all to be with him," she said. "I can't see how we ... would get back together, but I'm also not God, and I can't predict the future. No, I don't hate him at all. I actually love and care about him, and I think I'm concerned about him doing well. I want him to do well." Although Brown has given several high-profile interviews in the wake of the assault, Rihanna says now was the time for her to open up about it. "I knew I had to do this in order to move on for me and in order for my fans to move on with me, because it would always be a question in their mind," she said. "I don't want that five years from now — every time they see Rihanna, they think of Chris Brown beating me. That's not who I am. It's just one thing that happened to me." Chris Brown opens up about the February assault and its aftermath in "Chris Brown: The Interview," airing tonight at 6 p.m. ET/PT on MTV. Go here for domestic-violence resources, or check out Think MTV for a video handbook on spotting the warning signs of abuse. Related Videos Related Photos Related Artists |
| Lady Gaga Says Her Fans Inspire Her To Make Music Posted: 05 Nov 2009 11:46 PM PST 'I discovered lots of things about myself that I didn't know before through my fans,' she tells MTV News.
Lady Gaga has never been shy about thanking her fans for supporting her and her music. She speaks candidly about how much they have helped to shape her career and bring the sometimes-kooky pop star to the mainstream.
So with all the incredible success and accolades she's had in the last year, it's fitting that Gaga is once again making sure her fans are getting the attention they deserve for sticking by her side. "The past year, it's been unbelievable," she said. "It's been a phenomenal, inspiring experience." She credits her fans for not only proudly showing their Gaga love, but also inspiring her to continue making art. "I love my fans so much, and more than anything, I discovered lots of things about myself that I didn't know before through my fans," she said. "Because I was giving them so much in my shows." Gaga said she really feels their love during her live shows. "I have a very raw performance style and [I'm] leaving my heart on the stage every night, and they were giving me so much back in return that when the show was over, I wanted to write," she explained. "I wanted to make music." Gaga and her fans will reunite when she kicks off her Monster Ball Tour, where she will be battling her monsters. "It's part pop, part performance art, part fashion installation," she explained. "So all of those things are present." Related Videos Related Photos Related Artists |
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